Petroglyphs and Earthship

Petroglyphs

Petroglyphs. Petroglyphs at the Upper Scorpion Campground, Trail to the Past. These petroglyphs were created by people of the Mogollon culture. There are many theories as to what they may represent. Some are thought to be astronomical markers, maps, and other forms of communication, including a form of pre-writing. They constitute an ancient precursor of writing systems, followed later by pictographs and ideograms.  These petroglyphs are near a lower-level field house, perhaps used to stand guard over developing crops. The upper dwellings provided adequate shelter, while the surrounding forest concealed the homes. The wood found in the shelters has been found to be the original.

Earthship or Biosphere

Earthship. There are a number of biospheres along Highway 64, north of Taos. Earthship® is a registered trademark of Michael Reynolds. It refers to a form of passive solar house made of natural and recycled materials, such as earth-filled tires. Earthships are constructed to utilize available local resources, particularly energy from the sun. They are supposed to be sustainable architecture, rely on natural energy sources, and be economically feasible for the average person. No specialized construction skills are supposed to be required for their creation.

Gila Pictures

Near Visitor's Center

Near Upper Scorpion Campground

Along Gila River

Along the  River

Gila Continued (Pictures)

Old Silver Mine

Also three copper mines near Silver City.

Church at Winston, I think

Gun Racks at Winston General Store

Crossed on NM 52

Gila Cliff Dwellings

Railroad Trestle near Cloudcroft

Cloudcroft. Leaving Santa Fe, I headed toward Cloudcroft (clearing in the clouds) via Kline's Corner. I didn't stay there as it seemed basically a small and cabin community. I did see the railroad trestle on the right. The trestle (over Mexican Canyon) is a branch line (the Alamagordo-Sacramento Mountain Railway) of the El Paso and Northeastern Railroad, which built it to provide a steady supply of timber necessary to continue construction of the railroad line. The Cloud-Climbing Railroad became famous as the railroad with spectacular vistas along the way to its destination " in the clouds." I saw a deer as I continued driving across southern New Mexico's vast expanses to spend the night in Socorro.

General Store at Winston

Gila Cliff Dwellings. Taking a blacktop road (May 22, Wednesday) off I25 to Winston, I had a hotdog at the general store there. I thought I would not find much in the way of food or gas for quite some time. Some local ranchers/hunters were chatting with each other and with the woman acting as clerk, like one might expect in small towns. Part of the conversation consisted of her telling how an woman had helped her elderly husband by giving him a teaspoon of coconut oil each day. It becomes solid and has the appearance of lard when stored in the refrigerator but really helps the mind. After his first teaspoon full, he could draw a clock and locate some of the numbers on it. Maybe, this falls into the area of home remedies. Road 52 became 59 before it turned into an unimproved one which eventually led (142, 28, 159) to highway 180 which took me to Glenwood and eventually to Silver City. In this trip, I almost hit a startled deer, as it darted sharply across the road. I saw another along the way.

Gila River. Thursday, May 24, I saw the dwellings, starting with a field house at the Lower Scorpion Campground's "Trail to the Past" at the same elevation as the Visitor's Center. I had seen five deer on the way to the center. They definitely weren't afraid of people. A well-visited hummingbird feeder was an interesting feature of the visitor's center. Up a steep  trail on the mountain side are the ruins of interlinked cave dwellings build in five cliff alcoves by the Mogollon peoples. People of the Mogollon culture lived in these cliff swellings from between 1275 and 1300 AD. A very small lizard peeked out from beneath a rock step on the return trail, which was in full sun in contrast to the trail up. Much of the area was burned in the Miller (2011) Fire, named after the people whose unextinguished campfire started the conflagration. Beginning in the mountains, the three forks of the Gila River converge in this valley and ultimately flow toward the Colorado River. For as long as 10,000 years, this resource-rich floodplain acted as a travel corridor, drawing people into and out of the valley. The ancestral people of the Mogollon (pronounced mo-go-yón) region, Chiricahua Apache, spanish, and Mexican, and Anglo explorers and settlers relied upon this river for transportation. After viewing the cliff dwellings, I took unimproved and high-clearance vehicle only recommended road 150 north (up North Star Canyon), which runs between the Aldo Leopold and Gila Wilderness Areas.

Areas for Grinding Corn

Wilderness Areas. The Black Range, stretching 100 miles north to south and the state's largest mountain range, lies within the Aldo Leopold wilderness. Unlike the Gila Wilderness with its winding, flat canyon bottoms, rolling uplands, and grassy parks, the Aldo Leopold Wilderness safeguards its mountains with steep slopes, narrow canyons, and difficult access. Its ecosystems include Chihuahuan Desert scrub and grassland, piñon-juniper ponderosa pine, and spruce-fir. I continued on through Winston, spending the night at Truth or Consequences. The Gila Wilderness was the first area anywhere in the world set aside solely to protect its character as wildness.

Chimney at Inn on the Alameda in Santa Fe

Creek Crosses Unimproved Road

Backroads Now Traveled

Acequia 

Took back roads 315 and 144 over the Jemez Mountains to connect with highway 4. I saw two "cowboys" with their dogs moving their cows to new pasture. Quite a number of  cows roam the area restrained by fences and cattle guards. Then took 286 south that was supposed to lead to the Cochiti Mesa but lead to three dead ends. I saw a deer; other than that barely a person. I could see the destruction of the Los Conchas Fire of 2011, which burned more than 150,000 acres. I learned about this on my return  from a driver, who has the only home I saw in that remote area. He said the side of his house had been burned and had to be replaced and that the fire supposedly started when a dead aspen fell on a powerline, generating a spark. Next, I took 289 south through the Dome Wilderness Area also burned by the wildfire. This was a good road for awhile; but then it got really rugged before connecting to highway 16 and finally Interstate 25. Saw a deer and some turkey vultures in the grass by the side of the road. The Dome Wilderness is made up of rounded, pine-forested summits, deep canyons, and comparatively flat mesas. Two prominent summits are found in the wilderness, Boundary Peak, which with St. Peters Dome is part of the small San Miguel mountain chain, and Cerro Picacho (Hill Peak). The other major topographic feature of the Dome Wilderness is Sanchez canyon, created by erosion of the soft volcanic tuff (compressed volcanic ashes) that makes up the Pajarito Plateau. This tuff typically weathers into vertical cliffs. I saw features suggestive of this description but could not identify positively what they were.

Birch Trees at Higher Altitude

Cowboys Moving Cattle

With Dogs

Unusual Outcropping

Burst of Yellow

Wildfire Devastation Widespread

Cerro Pedernal at Start of Trip

Gatsby

The Novel

Gatsby. Saw Gatsby May 10, Friday, at 6:55 PM at the Storyteller 7 Theatre in Taos. Can't say the ticket purchasers, mostly teenagers, look middle class or better. Then again, Taos is a community with many poor people. All bags were checked for alcohol by the ticket taker. I was shocked at the glitz of the movie, though I didn't see the 3D version. Am now reading Spark Notes on the novel to get more commentary on the book's significance and staying power. Wikipedia sums it up well: "The Great Gatsby is a 1925 novel written by... F. Scott Fitzgerald that follows a cast of characters living in the fictional town of West Egg on prosperous Long Island in the summer of 1922. The story primarily concerns the young and mysterious millionaire Jay Gatsby and his quixotic passion for the beautiful Daisy Buchanan. Considered to be Fitzgerald's magnum opus, The Great Gatsby explores themes of decadence, idealism, resistance to change, social upheaval, and excess, creating a portrait of the Jazz Age that has been described as a cautionary tale regarding the American Dream." I like what Spark Notes says: "Gatsby's irresistible longing to achieve his dream, the connections of his dream to the pursuit of money and material success, the boundless optimism with which he goes about achieving this dream, and the sense of his having created a new identity in a new place all reflect the coarse combination of pioneer individualism and uninhibited materialism that Fitzgerald perceived as dominating 1920s American life."

Abiquiu

Rafting on the Chama River

Abiquiu. Have been here before so not a lot to add. What's different is all of the rafters on the Chama River on a very windy day. Also, more traffic on the gravel road to the monastery than I saw in March. Ghost Ranch and the Abiquiu Inn offer a lot of books on Georgia O'Keefe and a tour of her Abiquiu home. I have been fortunate to also have seen the one at Ghost Ranch. Bold sandstone cliffs overlook the Piedra Lumbre Valley. In the distance is the Cerro Pedernal, a narrow mesa on the northern flank of the Jemez Mountains. O'Keefe made many paintings of it; and her ashes were scattered on its top.

Cliffs as seen from Monastery Road

Flowers on Monastery Road/New since March

Wheeler Peak

Wheeler Peak. Wheeler Peak, the highest summit in New Mexico, is part of the Wheeler Peak Wilderness and not visible from Taos. Snow can linger in the high country until mid-June; and there was a bit of it yet in the Taos Ski Valley. The temperature was 57°. Alpine tundra, rare in the American Southwest, protects Wheeler and other proximate Wilderness mountains. I got as far as just below the alpine zone so saw dense conifer forest. About 135 million years ago, a huge geologic uplift created the Sangre de Cristo Mountains.  Wheeler Peak, at 13, 161 feet, is the highest of the range and the loftiest spot in New Mexico itself

Rio Hondo. I took NM 150, the Taos Ski Valley Road, which runs along the Rio Hondo, to Taos Ski Valley (Twining) to get a view of Wheeler Peak. The Rio Hondo runs down the mountains eventually connecting with the Rio Grande. I saw a lot of sporadic development and mountain homes of all architectural varieties. Still, it's a lovely area. It's great to have vast areas of New Mexico protected as wilderness areas where flora and fauna can recover from past abuse and thrive, even as they face pressure from increasing population and easier accessibility. In 2012, New Mexico's population was estimated at 2, 086, 000.

Columbine Creek. Found the more popular trailhead on NM 38,  four miles east of Questa, for the Columbine-Hondo Wilderness Study Area. Saw some active birdlife around the campground but didn't have my binoculars.  It's hard to get good pictures of creeks; but they're so refreshing spiritually and vital as water sources. The snowpack in the upper elevations acts as a bank of water, which supplies the needs of downstream communities. Just sitting by a creek for a few minutes tends to change my whole perspective on the world. No wonder Thoreau took to the woods and so enjoyed Walden Pond. To end the day I took the El Salto Road out of Arroyo Seco (seven miles north of Taos), through four wheel access only portions, up to a dead end. Along the way, I could have stopped and seen some waterfalls, which are on private property. I read later that the owners are willing to give out permits for a small fee. The village of Arroyo Seco (Dry Creek) was primarily a Hispanic-settled agricultural area–with a placita, a church, a few stores, and a post office–until Taos Ski Valley opened in 1955.

Columbine-Hondo Wilderness Study Area

Columbine-Hondo. This wilderness area is in a mountain basin, located in the Sangre de Cristo Mountains, the southern-most chain of the Rocky Mountains. From the late 1800s to the beginning of the twentieth century, miners and prospectors traveled a trail in this area between the gold camps of the Red River Valley and the mining camp of Twining (now Taos Ski Valley) as part of the New Mexican Gold Rush. The area is an important source of clean water for the central Rio Grande passage way in New Mexico, providing water for two of the larger Rio Grande tributaries–the Red River and the Rio Hondo. The area also waters many acequias (irrigation ditches) used by the local agricultural community. Spanish settlers used the area for seasonal sheep grazing and cultivation since the 16th century. I need to explore the area further. The part I saw consisted mostly of alpine tundra at upper elevations and had seen fire and drought. It is also early spring; and many shrubs are just beginning to show new growth. Lower elevations covered with juniper and Douglas fir, part of the Carson National Forest, were scenic.

John Dunn Bridge. On the way back to Taos, I drove over John Dunn Bridge. John Dunn's (1857-1953) purchase, with money he won at the poker table, of the toll bridge across the Rio Grande near Arroyo Hondo in 1900 gave him a monopoly on road travel in and out of Taos. Today, it's a popular fishing and swimming spot. Dunn himself lived through three periods of the West: the gun fighting, cattle working, and present modern Western eras. His home still stands filled with shops in the heart of the tourist district between Bent Street and Taos Plaza. It's a beautiful drive through this part of the gorge (itself 90 miles long and in places almost 1,000 feet deep).

Jhabvala: Searching for the Pure (like Water Drawn from a Well)

Ruth Prawer Jhabvala was a German-born British and American Booker prize winning novelist, short story writer, and Academy Award-winning screenwriter. The New York-Delhi Nexus. Jhabvala lived in India for 24 years (1951-1975). In 1975, she won the Booker Prize for her novel Heat and Dust, which was later adapted into a movie. She moved to New York the same year. She had "remained ill-at-ease with India and all that it brought into her life," and wrote in an autobiographical essay, "Myself in India," published in The London Magazine, that she found the "great animal of poverty and backwardness" made the idea and sensation of India intolerable to her, a "Central European with an English education and a deplorable tendency to constant self-analysis"–accompanied by a searing intelligence and astute insight. After moving to New York in 1975, she lived there until her death becoming a naturalized citizen of the United States. No Country was Truly Hers. Jhabvala was born in Cologne, Germany (her father had moved from Poland to escape the draft), from which her family fled to England in 1939. In 1948, her father committed suicide after discovering that 40 members of his family had died during the Holocaust. However, she would never become Anglo-Saxon. "No country was truly hers. She never took root anywhere, but kept her trunks ready and her ornaments few, ready to move on...Her fascination was that of the sharp-eyed outsider."   Escaping Repressed English Manners. Post-war England was a drab, rationed place. So in 1951, she was thrilled to be swept out of it by a Parsee Indian architect, Cyrus Jhabvala, her husband until she died. Still, she could never be Indian. She tried to assimilate; but for all her attempts, she remained as  "awkwardly conspicuous as those pallid, withered Westerners who came to India to find spiritual peace and caught dysentery instead." Though she had cease to live there since 1976, India held sway in her work. In "My Nine Lives (2004)," she has fictionally left New York and returned to live in Delhi. She remained attracted to India's holy songs, "pure like water drawn from a well. There, at night, in a burial ground, she found herself in a group of people singing songs of 'unrequited longing.'  At last, shyness laid aside, she fitted in. But she was exiled still." Most of this material is from: Rugh Prarwer Jhavbala,  The Economist/April  13, 2013, p. 94. Writing stories about displacement and culture clash, she had a sharp eye for the nuances of class and ethnicity.

Manet: Father of Modern Art.  Thursday, April 11, I saw via cinema the exhibition, Manet: Portraying Life, presented by the Royal Academy of Arts in London with host Tom Marlow. According to some art historians, Manet in his work accomplished the transition from the realism of Gustave Courbet to impressionism.  He was among the first to paint scenes of contemporary urban life, not previously considered worthy subjects of depiction. Part of but Aloof from the Crowd. His painting, Music in the Tuileries Gardens, composed in 1862 is an example. The band is playing (but unseen); and a fashionable crowd has gathered in a public park to listen to a concert. The composition represents Baudelaire's argument that modern life was heroic and as worthy a subject as any taken from the classical world. According to Baudelaire, the visual experience of the city, the spectacle of the city, conveyed the essence of modernity; and integral to this is the crowd. After all, people made the city and sets its pace; and with a population explosion unprecedented in history, life in Paris in the mid-nineteenth century had never been faster nor more crowded. An artist wishing to record the hustle and bustle of this new city life, according to Baudelaire, needed to be at least part of its crowds and possessed with the means, both intellectual and financial, to remain aloof from them. This artistic type he named the flâneur, meaning "stroller" or "loafer." By placing himself at the extreme left of the painting, critics suggest, Manet is deliberately identifying himself as a flâneur, the gentleman-dandy situated both within and removed from the crowd. Distancing. Also, Manet identifies himself with the artist, Velazquez, famous for bringing a greater psychological complexity to art and for scrutinizing in his paintings the relationship between the observer and the observed. Moreover, Manet, like Velazquez, surrounded himself with the great and the great personages of the contemporary art scene, including poet Charles-Pierre Baudelaire. He also includes several family members. The loose brush stroke and quickly executed masses of color in Music in the Tuileries Gardens suggest the spontaneous energy of the moment, even while few members of the audience appear to be engaged with each other. Manet desired to make the estranging quality of self-awareness an essential part of the content of his work. "Manet is the first painter for whom consciousness itself is the great subject of his art. A tableau vivant constructed so as not to dramatize a particular event so much as the beholder's alienation [Michael Fried, Manet's Modernism (U. of Chicago Press, 1996)]."

Rio Chama

Vision Quest. A vision quest is a rite of passage in some Native American cultures. The ceremony of the vision quest is one of the most universal and ancient ways to find spiritual guidance and purpose. A vision quest can provide forgotten or repressed understanding of one's life purpose. A traditional Native American vision quest, according to Wikipedia, consists of a person spending one to four days and nights secluded in nature. This provides time for intense communion with the fundamental forces and spiritual energies of creation and personal understanding. During this time of intense spiritual communication a person can receive profound insight into themselves and the world. This insight, typically in the form of a dream or vision, relates directly to their purpose and destiny in life. Over spring break (March 23-29) I went to New Mexico looking for a bit of the wild and remote. I wasn't expecting a "road to Damascus" type experience. I usually don't have sudden epiphanies of transformation. However, I did hope to find moments of solitude and freedom from the distraction of politics and teaching at my college.

Bulto

Christ in the Desert Monastery.  My first venture in quest of seclusion was Forest Service Road 151, which leaves Highway 84 and continues 13 miles to the monastery. It is winding, steep, and narrow at many points with a dirt and clay surface. It follows the Rio Chama which forms a beautiful canyon, surrounded by miles of government-protected wilderness, guaranteeing and promoting plenty of aloneness and quiet. On the return trip, I drove into a side-of-the road camping area. Conditions were rough; but the gate was open so I supposed my Chevy Captiva SUV would be able to handle them. As I took what I thought was an alternative exit, the front wheel  on the driver's side dropped into a deep rut and the bottom of the car got wedged on the crown of the track as I tried to free it. I had to sit a long time by the side of the road waiting for a potential ride–there aren't that many in this neck of the woods, so to speak, until finally I got a ride back to the monastery. There, after stating my case to an eremitical, very other-wordly looking monk seated in the gift shop, a  neuro-surgical engineer and his son on retreat agreed to help me, which turned into quite a task. 

Ranging cattle

The passenger side wheel had to be jacked up, dirt taken off the crown, so that the car could be eventually backed out. I was out, however, by early afternoon.  I explored one more unimproved road off highway 221. The scene here was more desolate; area preserved for habitat and not primarily for scenic value. In all these locations, I met with the occasional cow and calf, since some territory designated as wild or wilderness is still open to livestock grazing–due to conflicting needs of wilderness and wildlife preservationists v. ranchers and livestock owners. I followed the route until I came to a mostly dry riverbed. A dip where the road crossed, however, was filled with water. Since I didn't have a 4-wheel drive or skills in navigating mud, I turned back and called it a day. I had put myself into challenging experiences for the day and come out unscathed. How could I know what false confidence that would breed?

Mountain Snow in March

Headed for Albuquerque. On March 28, Thursday, I set out for Albuquerque. I wanted to take back roads to get there and see other secluded and insulated, isolated parts of New Mexico. I first drove to Coyote, a collection of settlements labeled a village, and turned south (315/217 Rio Arriba County) to start over the mountains to Jarosa, Jemez Springs, and Santa Ana Pueblo. The scenery was stunning, with some pasture lands at the lower levels, more fir trees at a higher elevation, becoming interspersed with small populations of birch. The day was beautiful; the sun was out with mild temperatures for March. I met with some patches of snow. Since they seemed shallow and partly thawed, I made it through them. Still, I finally met one in which my car got mired down; and there was nothing I could do to get it out.  Where the snow was most melted, it had the consistency of mush. 

Cerro Pedernal

Yet, at deeper levels or when it was compressed, it had an ice crystally quality. Not knowing what else to do, I started the walk back to Coyote. I wasn't afraid. In a way, it seemed a sort of test for how I might react in future situations where I would meet the difficult and unexpected. Surveying the situation, calling on my inner and outer resources, I would find a way out of the unknown. I may have been closer to Jarosa; but it was over the mountain top; and I had no idea of exactly how far it was or what I would find there. The way back to Coyote was downhill and formerly traveled terrain. I saw no one and no other buildings, except an uninhabited cabin, until I reached some farm homes close to Coyote. There was the occasional aluminum can, which one can hope rusts and rejoins the environment at some future date. It took me two and a half hours; so at my walking pace (1 mile in twenty minutes) it must have been about six and a half miles. As I passed a neat, wooden and barb wire-fenced field, I saw a small farm house with a little travel trailer nearby. I walked the gravel drive way and was met by three loudly barking dogs. I was quite uncertain, until I got closer and a man I would get to know as Siriaco Ireya, came out of the trailer. 

Chamisa

He was older, missing several front bottom teeth, and walked with a limp. The dogs proved to be all bark and no bite. After the initial noisy welcome, they quickly lived up to their reputation as man's best friend. Siriaco said that he would be able to help me out. We got into his pickup and started back up the mountain. He lives next to his brother, whom we met in his jeep as we drove. They spoke entirely in Spanish. Siriaco said he had seen me go by earlier in the day. Conversation was limited, since his first language appeared to be Spanish. Freeing my car impounded in the snow patch took some doing. The bottom of the car was impaled on a pack of snow; and all the tires would do was spin. 

Cholla Cactus

With a chain and much yanking and banging, we finally got the car pulled back–only to have it swoosh into a side ditch. Nonetheless, this allowed Siriaco to drive his truck through the patch, hook the chain to the front of my car, and with me steering, ultimately pull the car to the center and through the snow-covered spot. With Siriaco having driven his heavier truck through the area several times, it was broken up enough that I could drive across and eventually proceed with my travel plans by a different route. Heading over the mountain to Jaroso didn't seem advisable at this time of year, since I wasn't sure I had passed the worst of the snow impacted ground.  I was amazed Siriaco had been able to function so well. He refused any expression of concern for himself, saying that I wouldn't find any different resources in town. 

Sandia Mountains

He had had a stroke and walks with the limp mentioned and has a partially paralyzed hand and lower arm. He is named after his grandfather, who lived to the age of 92. In all, he has seven sisters and two brothers. I gave him $20.00 for helping me; and he seemed more than happy. This was a completely different situation from the one which had occurred the previous day. Then, I could sense that the physician-specialist would take no payment. He was at the monastery to meditate and improve his karma, hoping to "become a better person," he said. He did agree, however, to take a donation from me for the monastery. He reduced the amount I initially offered, saying the monks would be happy with far less–a sum equivalent to what I gave Siriaco. On two different days, I had examples of how people lived their lives, met its challenges, and reached out to help others in contrasting ways–both inspiring. 

Cross on Monastery Grounds

Near Albuquerque and Meeting Navajos. Near dusk I reached Hyatt Regency Tamaya Resort, which bills itself as offering a step into the sacred lands of the Santa Ana Pueblo. There is a replica of the traditional pueblo, originally named Tamaya, in the hotel. Otherwise, the hotel behind a huge casino complex is a colossal compound with disneyesque adobe decor, nothing authentic about it. The view of the Sandia Mountains from my room was tranquil and soothing.  The next day as I filled up the gas tank of my rental car on the way to the airport, I saw a Navajo couple also refueling. The woman's hairstyle was striking. The bangs, combed down from above the hairline of her white hair and cut blunt-straight across just above the eyebrows, fronted a top knot of long hair drawn up from the back. I had sat next to a  Navajo of unmixed ancestry on my flight to Albuquerque. She speaks her tribe's language and has to drive 150 miles from her home on the Navajo Reservation in the Four Corners area for groceries. Her home has running water but no electricity. The Navajo call themselves Diné. What I find in New Mexico is new areas to explore and diverse people to know and learn about. It's always fascinating. 

Abiquiu Morada

Recovering from PTSD. I'm writing this only now, since I visited my mother the weekend of April 5 to see how she fared after cataract surgery. She was dealing with health issues and had escalated, without my prior knowledge, what was supposed to have been a small get together for a few people (I had brought a special cake for it; and she had emphasized it should be a small one) into one twice the size. In spite of her having maintained that she couldn't handle or want a large birthday party, a number of the guests arrived bringing birthday cards. The maneuverings she went through to find the right room, make sure we got extra cake and ice cream, to make sure the right decorations were in the room, to make sure that the politics of it worked out right, etc., left me utterly exhausted, not to say burned out. 

Morada Bell

This along with the changes a child has to see in a parent as they get older was more than I could handle. I'm still in recovery. So my journey in solitude, contemplation, and spiritual discovery in wild and remote areas has only just begun. The vast and the dreadful have a great affinity to one another...a wild solitude where we are afraid of being alone....Savage lands that are uncultivated, landscapes ruined by the desolation of war, lands forsaken and abandoned–all partake of the quality of vastness which gives rise to a sense of secret horror within us....–Seigneur de Saint-Evremond, Dissertation sur la Mot de Vaste.  What will fill that sense of horror is what I will continue to search for. I've learned that there are all sorts of tests life might confront me with. The most pungent life trials are far different than those I might encounter in a set-up situation in a physical, material semi-wilderness.